Understanding faithfulness took a turn after a profound retreat in 2016. For years, I believed faithfulness meant constantly proving my worthiness to God. But I've learnt that God is not constantly evaluating my performance. How can we feel safe if we think we're always being judged? God is more interested in my genuine, authentic response to His love for me.
It's about being real with Him, even if it means admitting I can't forgive right now because I'm still too angry. God values my honesty over performative acts of faithfulness. This journey involved a lot of unlearning – letting go of misconceptions about God and faith. It took time and willingness to surrender what I thought I knew, but it led to deeper encounters with His true nature.
This has been a transformative journey from feeling evaluated to feeling loved. And it all started with realizing that God isn’t grading my faithfulness but loving me through it all.
To find out more, I invite you to listen to Episode 128 | Finding Self-Love Amidst Compulsions & Addictions
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